Sunday, February 1, 2009

strange day in my head

So today I wake up around 6:20 AM and think, " you should write about your philospohy of life" and then quickly delve into just what exactly that is all about. Before I can sit down and expound on that I get sidetracked on coffee making and CNN. During coffee with my wife I think again about my outlook on life but then get sidetracked on taking care of her 90 yr. old mother who also lives with us and has had a stroke so she needs lots of attention. Later I walk Maggie and think some more, but when I finally get home I sit down and read the paper and start to get melancholy until I'm hungry and feed myself. After lunch my wife goes to the quilt shop and I am finally alone (m-in-law is taking a nap). Now I feel semi blue and totally aimless. I need to gather some wood in and build a fire so I can watch the "big game". My thoughts (as I drink another beer) turn to what makes me happy (not much) and how simple minded people seem to find happiness so much easier. It is a beautiful day finally and some folks are out riding their motorcycle. They must be happy. Some folks are getting ready for the "big game" and they must be happy. I go in and build a fire in the fireplace. I am quite good at this and enjoy my ability to do so but it does not make me happy. I sit down and play skee ball on my ipod and drink a beer. It passes the time but I'm not really happy. I turn on sirious radio and listen to "garage rock" and play skee ball and drink another beer. I'm not happy but I'm feeling motivated enough to come jot down my thoughts. Maybe I'll have another beer and peel shrimp for supper. I know from past experience that staying busy is the best cure for these kind of days. Go Steelers!

1 comment:

  1. staying busy helps, dad. i've found that writing does too, strangely enough. i feel the way you've described here quite a lot. it must run in our family. or maybe i'm too young to feel that way? well, apparently not. maybe we both just need a big change.